(Ecclesiastes 2: "Hebel Happens")
(Ecclesiastes 3: "He Who Dies with the Most Hebel Wins")
(Ecclesiastes 4: "Fatalism, Flux, and Figs")
Ecclesiastes 4
I heard a
guy say recently, “All a man’s labor is for
his mouth and yet the appetite is not satisfied.” I get that now. I was feeling good about my new embrace of
life, but… how do I know what’s good for me during this lifetime, during the few years of this vaporous life?
I mean REALLY, truly good for me?
I have seized day after day, I’ve tried to enjoy what you have allowed
me to have, and I still feel empty. I
feel this overwhelming guilt like I am still wasting something that is already
so fleeting.
God, I
know you gave me something substantial – my life – and you gave me this new
desire to maximize my days (whee!)…but I feel like I am wasting them because I
don’t think I actually know what true enjoyment looks and feels like. I am experiencing a shadow of the real
thing. I’m playing at the mud puddle when I should be at the ocean, but I don’t know where the ocean is.







